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  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  Copyright © 2018 by Tene Edwards.

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  The Good Quote Publishing

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  Editor: Carla DuPont Huger and Shayla Raquel www.shaylaraquel.com

  Interior Design: © 2018 Mitch Green ([email protected])

  Book Cover and Illustrations: © 2018 Sarah Faber (www.sara-faber.com)

  ISBN-13: 978-1999588908

  Special thanks to Wale Kalejaiye and Meggan Roxanne for taking a chance on me and welcoming me into The Good Quote family.

  C O N T E N T S

  Monsoon Love

  6 - 18

  Winter Sorrow

  19 - 54

  Autumn Grace

  55 - 73

  Spring Resilient

  74 - 100

  Summer Freedom

  101 - 164

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  I W R I T E T O H E A L

  Here is the truth about the truth, it’s embarrassing.

  We are safe from judgment with the pretense of perfection, so we lie. Women often carry a weight of fear, shame, and embarrassment of who we are.

  Growing up, I was taught never to air my dirty laundry in public. However, life has taught me that owning my mistakes allows me to grab my power back.

  And sharing my truth may be the only light others need to drive them out of their darkness.

  To be free and to free others, I write my truth.

  Welcome to my truth.

  5

  I.M O N S O O N L O V E

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  L O V E S T R U C K

  I had my guard up,

  but your kiss to my soul brought that barrier down.

  And, when I fell asleep smiling that night for the first time in a long time…

  I knew that had to mean something.

  7

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  Y O U R V O I C E

  It’s late and I’m tired,

  but still I wait on your call.

  Your voice is the medication

  for the frustration with the distance.

  Your voice is my brightest sunshine through the winter nights.

  Your voice is the only melody

  that can rock me to sleep.

  8

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  M I S S I N G Y O U

  Another night,

  another ache for you.

  As I lay on my bed,

  I scroll through my phone,

  get lost in watching you.

  And wonder if you watch me, too.

  9

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  S Y N C H R O N I Z A T I O N

  Isn’t it strange that two people could be awake at 3.00 a.m.

  thinking about each other, but have no idea?

  1 0

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  T H E F A L L

  She fell in love with a bad boy

  because he brought out the wild in her and it felt like freedom.

  1 1

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  A T T A C H M E N T

  I inhaled your scent and got high as fuck.

  1 2

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  L O V E S O N G

  Nothing is more soothing than

  the rhythm of your heartbeat when I lay on your chest.

  1 3

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  H E R O I C

  Nourish me in my time of need.

  Take me high when I’m feeling low.

  1 4

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  L O Y A L T Y

  I often leave myself empty

  to keep others full.

  My loyalty need not be questioned.

  1 5

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  A D V E N T U R O U S

  Let’s fly away and start over in a new city.

  Venice, Paris, or Abu Dhabi maybe?

  Take me to a place I’ve never been before.

  Exhilarating adventures excite me

  more than material things ever will.

  1 6

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  F O R E V E R

  I was never strong enough to leave.

  Not even an earthquake could have kept me away.

  I would have chanced the jump for you.

  I was willing to hold on

  for as long as you wanted me to stay, because I said forever,

  and I meant it.

  1 7

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  L O V E C A R E F U L L Y

  You cannot help whom you fall for, but be careful who you choose to love.

  1 8

  II.

  W I N T E R S O R R O W

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  B A D B O Y S

  She only warns you away from bad boys because she has danced with one herself.

  She knows how addictive they are,

  and how difficult withdrawal symptoms get.

  2 0

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  B L I N D E D B Y L O V E

  Your touch struck me like lightning; it set my heart on fire, but paralyzed my brain.

  2 1

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  L O V E B L I N D

  They say, “follow your heart,”

  but sometimes the heart can be unreliable when it tangles in the blindness of love.

  2 2

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  C A N ‘ T L E T G O

  How many stabs is it going to take for me to realize my worth?

  Every chance I give, you wreck.

  Every promise you make, you break.

  You always leave, and I burst into tears.

  If anyone knew the things you put me through, they’d probably say that I was insane for staying with the person

  who owns the knife to my wounds.

  Love is not an excuse, but love is the only reason.

  2 3

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  T R U E C O L O R S

  The promises were sweet,

  but your actions grew sour.

  2 4

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  I G N O R E D S I G N S

  Don’t be surprised when you get burnt from your decision to ignore the alarm bells.

  2 5

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  O N E - S I D E D

  He tampers with your body and tramples over your heart.

  He lies to get what he wants.

  Lies to justify his actions.

  Lies to make himself look better.

  He lies because he only cares about himself.

  You accept his stories, knowing that they are all lies.

  As bad as they are, you still ride for him and I just don’t know why.

  2 6

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  T A K E C O N T R O L

  Stop complaining about a situation that you have chosen to settle in.

  2 7

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  L U S T

  He only loves you when your legs are open, you only love him because he opened them.

  When it’s over, the spark has gone, and you are left with this burden to carry.

  2 8

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  C O N S E Q U E N C E S

  Just because he craves you

  does not mean he
wants to pursue you.

  Think about your value before you pay the price.

  2 9

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  I N T U I T I O N

  I don’t like to gamble,

  but if there is one thing I am willing to bet on, it’s my intuition.

  Because how can I distrust my gut

  when it has never failed me?

  3 0

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  R E V E A L I N G S I G N S

  Don’t be fooled by someone’s promises when their actions often contradict their words.

  Playing blind to the truth is self-abuse.

  You know your worth - I know you do.

  So trust the signs - they speak the truth.

  3 1

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  F R U S T R A T I O N

  Nothing is more painful

  than having to watch something that kills you with no authority to say anything, because of the position you have chosen to settle in.

  3 2

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  M A K E U P

  Caking your face with makeup

  will not convince him to commit.

  If he has not found the value in you, he probably never will.

  3 3

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  H E A R T B I T E

  It was clear to me that it was over when instead of my neck, you bit my heart.

  I felt the pain, but not the pleasure.

  3 4

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  B R O K E N P R O M I S E S

  Losing you has taught me that promises are made in the moment,

  but become invalid when they end.

  3 5

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  M A S K I N G P A I N

  Hiding underneath the bedsheets,

  drowning in my tears.

  My mother had no idea how long I had been crying, how much my heart was hurting,

  and how hard it was pretending to sleep, when she walked in that early night to show me a gift she wanted my opinion on.

  I am sorry if I came across as selfish, rude, or cold.

  I was in a state that I could not allow you to see me in.

  3 6

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  A B O L I S H E D

  Your T-shirt was my favourite pajama, and I protected your gift like treasure; but when you broke me, I broke it

  and disposed of everything that reminded me of you.

  3 7

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  D Y I N G L O V E

  I stopped trying to figure out what went wrong when I realized that it was always wrong and could never get right.

  For what was the worth in fighting to keep alive a love

  that died a long time ago?

  3 8

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  A L M O S T R I G H T

  You were almost right.

  You had most of the qualities

  I had been looking for.

  You showed me things I had never seen before.

  I saw the potential in you,

  I saw the potential in us,

  I overcame the dirt you branded as mistakes, and although it was difficult, I thought it would be worth it.

  But you just kept repeating them, time and time again.

  You clearly could not help yourself.

  It almost could have worked, but that bad quality outweighed all the good.

  Almost was never enough.

  3 9

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  C A G E D

  Sometimes the memories come back to haunt me, and I drive myself crazy.

  Questioning the things you said,

  questioning where we went wrong,

  questioning what that moment meant to you.

  I understand why caged animals often fight to escape.

  4 0

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  R E M I N I S C I N G

  I miss the way you loved me,

  but I don’t want you back,

  because the way you crushed me,

  I will never forget.

  4 1

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  F U C K B O Y S

  Being a good woman in a world full of fuckboys is the realest struggle I have ever known.

  4 2

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  F A T H E R S

  Fathers should endeavor to prove

  that good men still exist

  by teaching their daughters

  how a woman should be treated

  through leading by example.

  4 3

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  H E A R T B R E A K

  It takes strength to forgive without closure.

  Only when you left me broken, I found self-love.

  Heartbreak is a brutal teacher.

  4 4

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  S T R E N G T H

  Your strength lies not in how you got the wound, but in how you nurse the wound.

  4 5

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  B I T T E R N E S S

  Once upon a time, hatred consumed me.

  Enraged by your deceit, I waited on karma to strike.

  I wished and hoped that it would bite you.

  I don’t know why I was so mad at you for finding someone who had something that you couldn’t find in me.

  Although unlike you, my feelings and words were true, I felt something was missing too; I knew this wouldn’t last.

  Maybe I would have done the same,

  left you for someone more compatible if the opportunity arose.

  I prayed for God to get rid

  of that bitterness in me.

  4 6

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  N U M B

  She has a kind soul, but a cold heart.

  4 7

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  N O R E T U R N S

  You were foolish to think

  that I would ever trust you with my key again, when after I let you in,

  you stung my heart

  and left me stranded in your deceit.

  You had your chance - now it’s gone.

  4 8

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  B R O K E N A N G E L

  She’s just a strong woman with a weak heart.

  Sweet, though broken.

  She’s an angel in a black dress.

  4 9

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  T R U S T I S S U E S

  Her father was her last hope

  for proving good men still exist.

  It was only when he let her down

  that she became skeptical of love.

  5 0

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  S T I L L I D R E A M

  I have risked my pride,

  risked my heart,

  risked abandoning my own needs,

  for a shot at the fairytale dream, and lost.

  Opening to love has always been a gamble, and although I have lost at every shot, still I dream.

  5 1

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  Y O U A R E E N O U G H

  You are enough,

  you always have been.

  Just not for him, but for the man meant for you.

  5 2

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  B I T T E R T R I A L S

  I know you’re tired

  of this horrible weather,

  which seems to be never-ending,

  but eventually, the storms

  you have fought through

  will reveal their reasons for striking, and you will understand the purpose behind these bitter trials…

  the moment they turn into

  your most sweetest blessings.

  5 3

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  K N O W L E D G E

  I mourned,
r />   I fought,

  I cried and I cried,

  as I ached for hope in a losing battle.

  Our chapter ended,

  and I lost myself.

  Until I picked up some books

  and found some words.

  Grace. Resilience. Freedom.

  I learned.

  5 4

  III.A U T U M N G R A C E

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  C O U N T E V E R Y B R E A T H

  If you are looking for a reason to smile, count every breath you take.

  I know you never chose to be here, but you were chosen to be here.

  You are a blessing to this world.

  5 6

  W A L K W I T H W I N G S

  D I F F E R E N T

  My mother knew I was gonna be different the day she named me.

  5 7

  T E N E E D W A R D S

  H A P P I N E S S